I used to love you once.
You entered my dreams and fantasies,
and at one time you belonged to me.
I couldn't get enough of you.
I always had to see your face,
hear your voice or
have your picture.
You were beautiful to me
pure perfection,
my eyes blinded to your faults.
In my eyes you could do no wrong.
Once hailed as my angel,
you have now fallen from grace
as I can now see your mistakes.
My stary dreams and sunshine...

You told me to whisper three words and you'll come running.

The problem is you didn't tell me what three words to whisper to bring you back.

"Please come back", "I miss you", "I love you", "I need you", "don't leave me"...

All three words, yet you still haven't come running.

Have I left your mind now that you're gone?

I'm still waiting if you ever choose to return.

Until...

It's 2010, but I'm still dealing with the same 2009 bullshit. My experience living in this house of horrors has taught me something: people aint shit. It's always about what you can do for them, yet they dont do shit for you. They leave you in a crisis and offer you nothing but empty apologies.

I dont know what's going to happen tomorrow. Will I be rescued by an angel of mercy? Or will I lose everything I ever valued? Only God knows. I hope in my heart that He will have mercy on me....

A couple of poems written in memory of Michael Jackson:

Why Couldn't You Stay?

Tomorrow will come, but the sun will not rise.
I will dread opening my eyes
to gray skies
that arrived when you left
and will remain for the remainder of my days.
Doomed to mechanical mornings
forced to face a cold world alone
Without your warmth.
Why couldn't you stay?
Everyday I'm wandering
and wondering
Why?
The night...

What a horrible year 2009 has been. We have lost way too many legends this year and personally I faced a crisis that was just as severe as one I faced in 2004. I wish I could control time, because if I would have known that all of this was going to go down, I would have used my powers to stay in 2008. I was done with this year on 7/7. Good fucking riddance to you 2009, you have brought nothing but misery to my life. You also brought me the worst summer of my life. And I for one will not miss you....