I'm so upset right now that I can't even think straight. I think I'm going to be up all night sick at my stomach. Just when I think things are getting better, I'm hit with THIS! I will not be upset. I will not panic. I am going to pray and work on fixing this so that it doesn't affect me or my family any more than it has.

I should have known better than to get involved with that chick. I cannot blame her solely for this turn of events, but I knew better than to involve myself...

I dunno why it always amazes or shocks me when people I think I know reveal their true colors/thoughts/beliefs. Right now I'm trying to figure out if I'm even angry, upset, or surprised by the comments of some people I thought were cool. I never figured them for judgemental assholes, but their comments come off as such.

I'm slowly but surely learning that I seriously do not need people. "For Dolo" is the way to go through life. Less confusion, less drama, fewer complications....

I haven't blogged in a minute. But it's almost 3:30am, I'm up, I'm feelin some kinda way and there's nobody to call with this foolishness.

I dunno what the fuck I'm doing with my life. Like seriously. Prexactly WHAT am I doing? I'm totally confused. I know what I want--almost. I know what it looks like but I just don't know what it consists of. That's a terrible thing and I'm not getting any younger. I'll be thankful that I have a job that allows me to live a lifestyle that...

I'm about to ramble--not for the sake of rambling, but just to get some shit out. I have like 898457984579488 thoughts running through my mind and even more emotions going through me right now. If I called someone I couldn't even articulate it and I'd just ramble on and on about God knows what probably fearing that I'd explode if I hung the phone up cutting off my life line. My connection to another life form.

I think I need music to live. I dunno what it is. I promise you (whoever...

I think people, in general, are way overrated. Trying to make relationships work is draining. Coddling nonsense and bullshit. Holding your tongue so as not to hurt feelings. Dealing with drama and theatrics when you'd rather not. All in the name of maintaining relationships and friendships.

I think I'm done. I'm tired and I am done. As much shit as I talk, I'm a softy. I let people walk all over me just to avoid conflict. I hate confrontation. I will let a wrong bitch be wrong,...