Boy kills himself after being encouraged by people on bodybuilding.com
im telling you that forum IS NOOOOOOOOO JOKE- play with them and they will make you famous
he even posted a video of himself dying,people but its been removed
Apparently
Ask a guy who is gonna OD (again) tonight anything
To Whom It May Concern,
I am going to leave this for whoever stumbles across my bookmarks later on.
I hate myself and I hate living. I think that if someone who knows me
reads this they will know who I am. So I will leave this unsigned. I am
an a@#hole. I have let everyone down and I feel as though I will never
change or never improve. I am in love with a girl and I know that I am
not good enough for her. I have come
to believe that my life has all been meaningless. I keep trying and I
keep failing. I have thought about and attempted suicide many times in
the past. I used to think of my failure as some mystical way of telling
me that I was really meant for something meaningful. The only thing I
dread, besides the pain, is the way my family will suffer. I do not want
my mother or father to think that it was anything they did that lead me
to kill myself. I never really had any plans of leaving a note. I
thought that I would not be able to describe why I want to do this and I
am right. There is no way to tell you or anyone else why I dread every
new day. My father had such high expectations for me and tried to give
me every opportunity to improve upon myself. I let him down. I think
that I am a major disappointment to him. I have a job but I?m always broke
and I am in college but barely, I show up to class but that?s about it.
I want my life to end. I am tired of f@#$ing up everything. I
am tired of people always telling me that they do not like me. I am
tired of trying to be decent. I hope that someone finds this post and I
hope that my parents know that I f@#$ed up not them. It is my fault I
screwed up my own life.
The hate that rages within me, rages not for those I love so dearly or
those who have crossed my path.
This hate rages full force towards me and only me.
I have long forgiven those who've hurt me, but I have not and cannot
come to terms to forgive myself for the things I have done to myself, and
the things I've done to hurt those in my life.
You have all touched my life in one way or another,
especially those whom I call family.
I cannot tell you how sorry I am for ending my life the way I did. I
hope that you can all find it in your heart to see it as way for me not
suffering anymore and that I am finally at rest with myself, for being at
rest with the guilt that constantly ate at me for so long.
Please forgive me all for taking my own life so early. I tried so hard
to fight against this strong battle. I have reached out for help so many
times, and yet I believe, I was turned away because of the things I did,
that it is a punishment I am willing to take, for I know that being who I am
has only brought myself and others pain.
I love you all and will forever live within the memories we created.
Forgive me.
Love always and forever,
As for my signature I will leave you with a quote so that if anyone
reads this they will know it's me, "Can?t feel pain if your dead? Just Saying"
M
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OST RECENT UPDATE: http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm...id=283 885544 according to the myspace of a friend this is indeed serious. Even after making this thread I had hoped I was wrong, and that he would at least pull through if he had done it. I may not have known you in real life Abraham, but we are all greatful for your many many hilarious contributions to this site. Once again I'd like to say the hearts of the misc go out to the friends and family of Abraham K. Biggs. If any of you are out there reading this I'd just like you to know this isn't your fault.
I'd like to let everyone know that it has been confirmed by someone who knows him that Candyjunkie (Abraham) did pass away. If you knew him I just wanted to let you know (hopefully I speak for everyone when I say) we're truly sorry for your loss. We may not all feel the same way about the circumstances, or how things were handled, but this community does give you its sympathy. If theres anything that can be done for you or some of candyjunkie's family feel free to post in here, if you'd like to post anonymously send me a PM and I'll post it for you.
Hopefully we can all learn from this. In the future situations like these need to be handled as real and serious no matter what. I don't care if its the 10th thread that someone has made on the same subject; if their life is in danger that should be the 10th time the police have been to their house.
We may not all agree that what Abraham did was the right thing, or a brave thing, but we can all admit its something that could have, and should have, been prevented.
Mods: I'd like to request that you filter out inappropriate responses in this thread. The last thing the people mourning this loss want to see is someone they just lost being openly mocked
Re: Boy kills himself after being encouraged by people on bodybuilding.com
That site really isn't that bad. I don't know what area this person posts in but generally in the supplement science sections or the workout sections or diet etc. I have never seen posts like these. I will say that Bodybuilding.COM is a great place to get contradictory information as the site is so large. The other thing that is prevalent over there is the use of steroids amongst many of the forum users ESPECIALLY the younger kids. When I read his post it seemed as if he was in some deeply depressed state which occurs when people who juice stop juicing and go on SERM.
This is a very unfortunate incident if indeed this is true. I feel sorry for the parents and close friends and family.
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Re: Boy kills himself after being encouraged by people on bodybuilding.com
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Originally Posted by Sire
That site really isn't that bad. I don't know what area this person posts in but generally in the supplement science sections or the workout sections or diet etc. I have never seen posts like these. I will say that Bodybuilding.COM is a great place to get contradictory information as the site is so large. The other thing that is prevalent over there is the use of steroids amongst many of the forum users ESPECIALLY the younger kids. When I read his post it seemed as if he was in some deeply depressed state which occurs when people who juice stop juicing and go on SERM.
This is a very unfortunate incident if indeed this is true. I feel sorry for the parents and close friends and family.
the sections you talk about are ok- but venture into the MISC section
and you will know what i am talking abut- i just cant believe the boy had a webcam and streamed himself dying and poeple were actually encouraging him to do it
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Re: Boy kills himself after being encouraged by people on bodybuilding.com
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Originally Posted by LovingLV
He didn't have the heart anyway, sad but true.
A lot of people online don't realize the affect their words have, including myself. I hear people say stuff like "Just die" all the time.
i agree- regardless of what poeple say words really hurt whether they come from a stranger or not coupled with the fact that i think this boy was probably depressed in some way
mental illness is such an issue which is constantly being brushed under the carpet in the black community we really need to deal with it
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