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Pro BW
Things started out good...I did a daily prayer thing with my church and tried to keep it going with the Bible app. I've been feeling so dejected lately. I've been praying so long (in my mind) for a new job and one that felt like the one, sent my rejection email earlier this week.
I had gone for what felt like a long time (but probably more like a month idk) without pornography and much longer without actual xes. I was building up my spirit, but this world can snatch it away in the blink of an eye. Which is sad. I've been feeling self-loathing and depressed and just need some kind of release....this is the second time I've done this since I started really trying to change my life and I don't want to slip back into living in sin to the point that I'm not even thinking about it. It's just so hard, to sit there with my head in the Bible and waiting for His plan to unfold. I have no patience, it brings me to tears
I had gone for what felt like a long time (but probably more like a month idk) without pornography and much longer without actual xes. I was building up my spirit, but this world can snatch it away in the blink of an eye. Which is sad. I've been feeling self-loathing and depressed and just need some kind of release....this is the second time I've done this since I started really trying to change my life and I don't want to slip back into living in sin to the point that I'm not even thinking about it. It's just so hard, to sit there with my head in the Bible and waiting for His plan to unfold. I have no patience, it brings me to tears