Msangelbaby
LSA’s Favorite Villain
All throughout school, I never wanted to show my face when my breakouts got really bad. I would coat my face in toothpaste or Noxema, praying that by the time I woke up it wouldn’t be so bad.
Of course, it was still terrible when I woke up in the morning. I had to wake up and face the music after a night of dreading the moment I had to set foot in school with a broken out face.
I’m glad those days have long since ended and I’m not obligated to go anywhere. I’ve tried to tell myself that it doesn’t matter. There’s not much I can do besides going to the dermatologist and applying the topicals that she’s prescribed. But, it’s still hard to leave the house whenever I look in the mirror and see that Mt. Vesuvius is about to erupt on my face.
It’s so easy for people to say that, “no one is looking at you. No one realizes that you have cysts and whiteheads on your face. It’s not even that bad.” I still want to crawl in my bed and never leave after I see that my skin hasn’t improved much.
Sometimes, I vow to never leave until my skin is clear. Then I realize that it’s unrealistic. The way my skin works, I would probably be pushing 90 and still waiting for it to clear up so that I can leave the house.
Of course, it was still terrible when I woke up in the morning. I had to wake up and face the music after a night of dreading the moment I had to set foot in school with a broken out face.
I’m glad those days have long since ended and I’m not obligated to go anywhere. I’ve tried to tell myself that it doesn’t matter. There’s not much I can do besides going to the dermatologist and applying the topicals that she’s prescribed. But, it’s still hard to leave the house whenever I look in the mirror and see that Mt. Vesuvius is about to erupt on my face.
It’s so easy for people to say that, “no one is looking at you. No one realizes that you have cysts and whiteheads on your face. It’s not even that bad.” I still want to crawl in my bed and never leave after I see that my skin hasn’t improved much.
Sometimes, I vow to never leave until my skin is clear. Then I realize that it’s unrealistic. The way my skin works, I would probably be pushing 90 and still waiting for it to clear up so that I can leave the house.