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Does anyone else struggle with MD? Incog is available. If you're not familiar, here's a link that summarizes it: http://www.medicaldaily.com/maladaptive-daydreaming-what-it-247629
The dreams are becoming increasingly more long and involuntary each day. It's really getting in the way of me being productive too. For instance, I'll be in the middle of studying for a very important exam and my focus is broken by one of my usual daydreams. I can't help it though, I hate my reality so much that the dreaming is a coping mechanism. I hate my job, I'm in school studying something I'm not very comfortable with, but I want to impress my parents (who don't see any value in me unless I work towards a "prestigious" career). I don't really have any friends, no SO, all my energy goes to school and work, I am constantly stressed out and anxious. Nothing in this world fulfills me. What I really want is to feel like someone in this world actually gives a damn about me. I just feel so unloved and don't see the point in anything anymore. To escape it all, I dream...particularly about this one guy that I really like. We were briefly seeing each other last year, but due to unfortunate circumstances, we never got to develop a relationship and I don't see or talk to him anymore. The problem is, I think about him all the time in the most idealized way and he has been the main "character" in my daily daydreams for almost a YEAR now. It's very pitiful, and I wish I could stop it, but the idea of finding true love really keeps me going in this world. I'm beginning to doubt it even exists.
I understand that I need counseling, but I just wanted to see if I could get some comfort here. Can anyone at least relate?
The dreams are becoming increasingly more long and involuntary each day. It's really getting in the way of me being productive too. For instance, I'll be in the middle of studying for a very important exam and my focus is broken by one of my usual daydreams. I can't help it though, I hate my reality so much that the dreaming is a coping mechanism. I hate my job, I'm in school studying something I'm not very comfortable with, but I want to impress my parents (who don't see any value in me unless I work towards a "prestigious" career). I don't really have any friends, no SO, all my energy goes to school and work, I am constantly stressed out and anxious. Nothing in this world fulfills me. What I really want is to feel like someone in this world actually gives a damn about me. I just feel so unloved and don't see the point in anything anymore. To escape it all, I dream...particularly about this one guy that I really like. We were briefly seeing each other last year, but due to unfortunate circumstances, we never got to develop a relationship and I don't see or talk to him anymore. The problem is, I think about him all the time in the most idealized way and he has been the main "character" in my daily daydreams for almost a YEAR now. It's very pitiful, and I wish I could stop it, but the idea of finding true love really keeps me going in this world. I'm beginning to doubt it even exists.
I understand that I need counseling, but I just wanted to see if I could get some comfort here. Can anyone at least relate?