Mz.Chancellor
Old Money
Ive been suffering from anxiety since i had an assault 10 yrs ago. I had my first anxiety attack a few months after it happened. I also had another traumatic event happen last year. I over think alot and worry. Im not on any medicine and dont beleive in it. I always think the worst but prayer as well as me being optimistic about thinhs have helped. Alot of times i like to be by myself and dont like anyone getting close to me especially those who i dont have a good feeling about. My logic is that only i understand me and im not trying to help no one understand me. I often drift off into deep thoughts alot. No suicidal thoughts at all. I do consider myself to have an alter ego however i keep that to myself too. I even function well at work and in everyday life. When i do express to my mom abt my anxiety she just brushes it off because she dont understand it. I dont really express much to her because she kept me sheltered as a kid and treat me like im the only friend she has. She doesnt like for any man to be close to me and i always felt pressured to do things to either keep or mouth shut abt me or to keep her happy but im tired of that too. Sorry about the long rant....no i havent seeked professional help at all.