SunGod
General Manager
This is random but I've been doing quite a bit of thinking lately regarding xes, men, relationships, etc. What came across my mind was the whole "Friend With Benefits" situation. I've had many of them in the past, and it never really turned out happily ever after. In the moment, I say to myself "fµck it, it's just xes. We are just having fun!" but then my emotions start getting involved...ALMOST ALWAYS. At this point in my life, I'm not by any means trying to rush into a relationship either. I'm still in school, still finding myself, and still young. But at the end of the day, I do long for something real. I love having xes as much as the next woman, but I don't want to feel or look stupid after the fact.
I want to be treated with respect, showered with attention, and genuinely cared about. Nothing wrong with having xes at all, and I'm not knocking anybody who is into the FWB thing. My thing is, if I agree to a situation like that, I need to know what will I be getting in return? Besides hard dick? I mean come on. I feel like if I sleep with you, we may not have a 'title,' but you can still treat me like we do. Which means, I either need your TIME or for you to be spending some type of money. Or both. And if you can't agree to that, then I won't be fµck!ng you.
xes is enjoyable to me, and I am definitely no Virgin Mary lmao but at the same time, I want something to show for it. I want to train myself to "think like a man," to be able to fµck and go about my business without getting in my feelings. When I do have xes, I only do it with one man at a time, so I am not the type of girl to have multiple partners. I am very passionate, traditional, and emotional. I am just terrified of getting hurt and played again because I have made so many mistakes in the past. Sorry to get all deep lol, just had to vent for a minute.
Thoughts?
I want to be treated with respect, showered with attention, and genuinely cared about. Nothing wrong with having xes at all, and I'm not knocking anybody who is into the FWB thing. My thing is, if I agree to a situation like that, I need to know what will I be getting in return? Besides hard dick? I mean come on. I feel like if I sleep with you, we may not have a 'title,' but you can still treat me like we do. Which means, I either need your TIME or for you to be spending some type of money. Or both. And if you can't agree to that, then I won't be fµck!ng you.
xes is enjoyable to me, and I am definitely no Virgin Mary lmao but at the same time, I want something to show for it. I want to train myself to "think like a man," to be able to fµck and go about my business without getting in my feelings. When I do have xes, I only do it with one man at a time, so I am not the type of girl to have multiple partners. I am very passionate, traditional, and emotional. I am just terrified of getting hurt and played again because I have made so many mistakes in the past. Sorry to get all deep lol, just had to vent for a minute.
Thoughts?