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No face, no case.
This is more of a rant but I am hella salty about being diagnosed so late in life with my ADHD and ASD. There's so much that I feel like I've lost or forgot or didn't get to do and I feel like a chunk of that is because I was constantly trying to be 'normal' and spending all my time just trying to tread water to do things like everyone else. I've been with my psychotherapist for 2 months and finally got some meds. I'm angry about it. I'm upset that I spent my whole life fighting myself when I didn't have to. I look at videos of me as a child and I see all these signs that my parents tried to beat out of me. I see all these gifts and focus that I had for things that my family told me to ignore. And I did bc I really didn't know. Now I do and I'm playing a game of catch up that just hurts. Like I opened a Coinbase account in 2015. But I obviously forgot about it and never finished registration bc it needed bank info and I had to remember to call the bank to get that bc I couldn't access my account bc I forgot my username and password but then by the time I probably needed to do that, I probably got distracted by like washing dishes or some dumb sh!t. I know this is rambling and whatever but I'm just upset that this clarity and confidence in myself was here but I didn't get to experience it until I missed the boat on so many opportunities that are popping now and it's almost like FOMO but stings a little more bc I was there....I just wasn't able to focus enough to complete anything to be with everyone else. This is my TEDTalk lol.