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If I'm here I got time
Three years ago I met this guy, S. We went on a very nice date that ended in a very deep conversation. I felt seen for the first time in my life like he just somehow knew me. The vibe between us was out of this world. It was so intense and weird to me, never having encountered that before, that I got scared, and basically ghosted him. In the years since I've held on to that night, and think about S randomly but consistently. maybe 1-3x a year. We would talk here and there, but it always ended with me ghosting a little bit b/c the intensity was very provocative, and I shied away.
-Lately I've been getting into spirituality and finding m way in regards to that stuff. I was reading about near-death experiences, past lives, the reincarnation of the souls, God, etc. I had a thought, why am I so drawn to S and why do I still think about him? I just had this feeling, like if past lives are real, S was definitely mine in a past life. So I ran our info in this app called the pattern. I found out we supposedly have past life love connections, past life friendships, and it said a bunch of other weirdly accurate stuff especially about us being drawn to each other and feeling instant ease. Idk if I believe in reincarnation or astrology 100% yet though that app is always giving me reads, but reading all that and it matching up with my history with him and always thinking about him really confirmed my feelings. I only mentioned that b/c that's the only "evidence" I have of me maybe not overthinking the connection, besides him telling me he feels the same way as I mention next ->
Last night we texted and it came out we both are interested in each other, and we both felt that intensity and ease. However, I want him so so badly. I have never felt this way about someone, it's inexplicable. It's not lust, because I don't even find him super attractive. I want him based off some instinct inside me. and when we talk, it just proves to me logically why I'm so into him. I'm just kind of sad because while he expressed the same interest, it doesn't feel like he's making a move. He didn't even ask me out after the conversation. I'm not going to chase him but I just know we should be together. Idk how long we're supposed to be together or how it's supposed to end, but we feel fated.
Now I know I just come off like some girl in love with some dude, lusting after him but I promise that's not it. It's much deeper than that and I have 0 explanation besides our one hangout, the app confirming my weird feelings, and my instincts. Has anyone experienced this? It's like a knowing
-Lately I've been getting into spirituality and finding m way in regards to that stuff. I was reading about near-death experiences, past lives, the reincarnation of the souls, God, etc. I had a thought, why am I so drawn to S and why do I still think about him? I just had this feeling, like if past lives are real, S was definitely mine in a past life. So I ran our info in this app called the pattern. I found out we supposedly have past life love connections, past life friendships, and it said a bunch of other weirdly accurate stuff especially about us being drawn to each other and feeling instant ease. Idk if I believe in reincarnation or astrology 100% yet though that app is always giving me reads, but reading all that and it matching up with my history with him and always thinking about him really confirmed my feelings. I only mentioned that b/c that's the only "evidence" I have of me maybe not overthinking the connection, besides him telling me he feels the same way as I mention next ->
Last night we texted and it came out we both are interested in each other, and we both felt that intensity and ease. However, I want him so so badly. I have never felt this way about someone, it's inexplicable. It's not lust, because I don't even find him super attractive. I want him based off some instinct inside me. and when we talk, it just proves to me logically why I'm so into him. I'm just kind of sad because while he expressed the same interest, it doesn't feel like he's making a move. He didn't even ask me out after the conversation. I'm not going to chase him but I just know we should be together. Idk how long we're supposed to be together or how it's supposed to end, but we feel fated.
Now I know I just come off like some girl in love with some dude, lusting after him but I promise that's not it. It's much deeper than that and I have 0 explanation besides our one hangout, the app confirming my weird feelings, and my instincts. Has anyone experienced this? It's like a knowing
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