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No face, no case.
So I started dating someone last year and the whole situation lasted about 5-6 months. I thought we were in a real relationship because he said we were and also talked about wanting to settle down and be with me (yes this was a red flag, but I figured if we just took things slow it didn’t matter and it was a good sign that he was marriage minded) but it was just a trick to get me comfy. Things moved really quickly and he loved bomb me (didn’t know that was a thing at the time). The man I thought him to be was single and childless, came from the hood but formally educated with money turned out to be a typical drug dealing, scamming ass ***** with multiple kids and a baby mamas. He was also still in a relationship with one of his bms.
He called/FaceTimed me all day, everyday, helped me move into my new apt, and came to help me with car problems once. I don’t know where this baby mama was. He also manipulated me into a situation that took money out of my pocket (over $2k) and
I still love him. He was everything I wanted. Smart, funny, ambitious, well rounded. He was also very nice to me and I’m not used to men being nice to me. We got drunk and I threw up, kinda blacked out and he took care of me.
Please don’t berate me for my self esteem cuz I know it’s low, and I’m almost 30 so it’s not going to change anytime soon if it hasn’t by now. I’m also planning to start therapy in a few months.
I just want to stop thinking about him, especially at night when I’m trying to fall asleep. It’s almost been a year and he’s all I think about. I fantasize about him coming back. I know he’s not because I was petty (idgaf) and ended it by confronting him on social media so he hates me. This makes me even more sad cuz not only did he never really care about me but he cussed me out, called me all kinds of name, and threatened me.
It could have been worse I know. But the fact is, I am still devastated and obsessed with him despite it being a very short lived fling. I call into work regularly because I’m depressed about it and this week I started crying uncontrollably in my cubicle. Help.
He called/FaceTimed me all day, everyday, helped me move into my new apt, and came to help me with car problems once. I don’t know where this baby mama was. He also manipulated me into a situation that took money out of my pocket (over $2k) and
I still love him. He was everything I wanted. Smart, funny, ambitious, well rounded. He was also very nice to me and I’m not used to men being nice to me. We got drunk and I threw up, kinda blacked out and he took care of me.
Please don’t berate me for my self esteem cuz I know it’s low, and I’m almost 30 so it’s not going to change anytime soon if it hasn’t by now. I’m also planning to start therapy in a few months.
I just want to stop thinking about him, especially at night when I’m trying to fall asleep. It’s almost been a year and he’s all I think about. I fantasize about him coming back. I know he’s not because I was petty (idgaf) and ended it by confronting him on social media so he hates me. This makes me even more sad cuz not only did he never really care about me but he cussed me out, called me all kinds of name, and threatened me.
It could have been worse I know. But the fact is, I am still devastated and obsessed with him despite it being a very short lived fling. I call into work regularly because I’m depressed about it and this week I started crying uncontrollably in my cubicle. Help.