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No face, no case.
Its truly getting to me now. I am a young, female substitute teacher. Ive recently been subbing at high schools in the more rough part of town b/c I'm sick of the pretentious and smug students at the high schools near me. Anyway since ive done this ive had male students mainly and female students to a less extent instantly start negging my apperance when I start enforcing rules or attempting to right their wrongs (ex: telling them to put the phones away, asking to get on task, lower the volume, etc). Mind you i am a very laid back sub but im not going to let them walk over me so I make sure to stand my ground. When i do they almost always lash out on me. For example today i went home crying because i was just so sick of being berated for no reason. This male student loudly asked while snickering 'Iz dat yo real hair?' after I called the dean on a group of freshmen girls they invited to their teacher's class. Before i could even say anything another male student said 'you know dat sh!t ain't real with her baldheaded ass'. (I wear clip in afro extensions so my hair is big in a natural way) Then they go on and on about it while the entire class is laughing. Another one goes in saying my teeth is yellow and that 'I'm doing too much'. Whenever i tried to get them to stop and be quiet they mocked my voice and told me to stio talking like that. I feel like aome of them aren't exposed to black women who aren't their norm. I keep hearing them say I'm 'doing too much' like im suppossed to let them run havoc. Its like deja vu because every school i go to the gair issue comes up, students saying how ugly i am, etc. Im just sick of it. It's screwing up my self-esteem b/c now im asking my bf if my hair looks bad and if im really ugly when i know what some 16 year old is saying shouldnt bother me. Its so hard being a black teacher b/c sone students just will not respect you especially if they see you as 'soft'.I feel like they think im too uppity or something and its their way of putting me in my place but im 100% sure they wouldnt be doing all this crap to a young white or latina sub. My question is how should i handle these situations going forward. When i called the dean in the boys were still talking sh!t about my 'wig' in front of the dean and just berating me. My hair is similar to this btw to anyone who cares.