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jesus is a messy heaux
I don’t know how to do go about this since I never really thought it would happen to me in the way that it has happened to me. So a few weeks ago I was with a couple of people that I know. It was cool and all and I had no problems with them this pass before. So we were at one of our gay guys house, his parents weren’t home;
there were about five of us including me. The gay guy let’s call him R was with his boyfriend and there were two other girls with us. I never went to his house before but they all have been there so I saw no reason not to go.
I’m not really friends with R but I am friends with the two other girls that why I went with them. We talked, played video games and all that other sh!t. The two girls had to leave because they had other plans or something. I should have went with them but I don’t know why I decided to say. After they left it was just me and the dudes. I wasn’t really afraid because it wasn’t like they were going to do anything.
After the two girls left R asked me if I wanted to drink something or eat something. It was odd that he asked me that since we just ate and I had a soda. I was like no, maybe I should get going but his boyfriend lets call him J was like no you should stay or whatever, that R can cook and we can get to know eat other better. I love food so I gave into it and it wasn’t really late like about maybe 3:30ish.
R decides to go to the kitchen and start cooking. So I’m in the living room with J and he starts asking me questions and stuff. I am not one to shy away from my sexuality or my xesual life. I am a virgin through and through and I told him that straight. He was like I’m so shocked you don’t look like a virgin. It wasn’t the first time I got that so I wasn’t surprised. He goes and helps R and I was alone in the living for a several minutes.
It was about 5ish I like to check my phone for the time often. It’s a weird habit of mine; when I told them that I should go but J was just like you should stay because we don’t know you so well and we may never hang out again blah blah blah. I took the bait and decided to stay for maybe an hour or so because why not? We were watching a movie on HBO but we were really paying attention.
They both started asking me more questions about myself and all that fun stuff. Of course I answer them all. I’m in open person so there’s no reason for me to hide anything. Out of no where R was like you have really big boobs. I was surprised but I didn’t really let it show. He decides to just grab my left boob and says that this one is bigger than the the right one. I was shocked so I pull his hand way and I wasn’t feeling it. I told him that he shouldn’t do that but he was like calm down there’s no harm in it.
I was sitting in the middle of them so I moved closer to J and then J just pushes me forward into R saying that I have to stop acting like a b!tch. Mind you I don’t know those two people like that. We only met about four times before this and we aren’t as chill with each other. R proceeds to go back to weighting both of my boobs like a weirdo. I let him do it anyway because it wasn’t like they were going to do anything xesual to me.
J was still sitting next and asks for my bra size. I didn’t even know why I told them. R decides to really see if I was right and lifts up my shirt to check the bra tag. I was so mortified at him doing that. J starts to poke my boobs and say it’s so soft and warm. He asks me if my nipples are hard because of that. I don’t know what went inside my mind but I just knew it wasn’t going to end there so I had to get up. Luckily my mom called me, I decided that it was the right time for me to leave before something really did happen.
I can’t belive they had the all three locks on the front door locked. It was so weird and I was just shaking after I left. When I gethome I talked to one of the girls that left. I told her how they touched my boobs and they were asking inappropriate questions. She was like they were just probably curious and they weren’t going to do anything. She said I should let it go and it didn’t mean they were doing to do anything. I still was feeling uneasy.
I don’t know why I didn’t stop them. I mean I could but I just didn’t. I just thought that maybe if I just let them they were going to stop. I felt so weird and it was like an out of body experience. It was like I wasn’t in my body while the whole thing was going on. I don’t know if it’s because they’re gay or I don’t know but I hate myself for letting them do it. My chest just feels weird now and i just have the chills ever since. I haven’t talked to them ever since nor do I want to hang out if they are there. Is it a normal thing for gay guys to do that? Am I over reacting? Should I just forget about it?
there were about five of us including me. The gay guy let’s call him R was with his boyfriend and there were two other girls with us. I never went to his house before but they all have been there so I saw no reason not to go.
I’m not really friends with R but I am friends with the two other girls that why I went with them. We talked, played video games and all that other sh!t. The two girls had to leave because they had other plans or something. I should have went with them but I don’t know why I decided to say. After they left it was just me and the dudes. I wasn’t really afraid because it wasn’t like they were going to do anything.
After the two girls left R asked me if I wanted to drink something or eat something. It was odd that he asked me that since we just ate and I had a soda. I was like no, maybe I should get going but his boyfriend lets call him J was like no you should stay or whatever, that R can cook and we can get to know eat other better. I love food so I gave into it and it wasn’t really late like about maybe 3:30ish.
R decides to go to the kitchen and start cooking. So I’m in the living room with J and he starts asking me questions and stuff. I am not one to shy away from my sexuality or my xesual life. I am a virgin through and through and I told him that straight. He was like I’m so shocked you don’t look like a virgin. It wasn’t the first time I got that so I wasn’t surprised. He goes and helps R and I was alone in the living for a several minutes.
It was about 5ish I like to check my phone for the time often. It’s a weird habit of mine; when I told them that I should go but J was just like you should stay because we don’t know you so well and we may never hang out again blah blah blah. I took the bait and decided to stay for maybe an hour or so because why not? We were watching a movie on HBO but we were really paying attention.
They both started asking me more questions about myself and all that fun stuff. Of course I answer them all. I’m in open person so there’s no reason for me to hide anything. Out of no where R was like you have really big boobs. I was surprised but I didn’t really let it show. He decides to just grab my left boob and says that this one is bigger than the the right one. I was shocked so I pull his hand way and I wasn’t feeling it. I told him that he shouldn’t do that but he was like calm down there’s no harm in it.
I was sitting in the middle of them so I moved closer to J and then J just pushes me forward into R saying that I have to stop acting like a b!tch. Mind you I don’t know those two people like that. We only met about four times before this and we aren’t as chill with each other. R proceeds to go back to weighting both of my boobs like a weirdo. I let him do it anyway because it wasn’t like they were going to do anything xesual to me.
J was still sitting next and asks for my bra size. I didn’t even know why I told them. R decides to really see if I was right and lifts up my shirt to check the bra tag. I was so mortified at him doing that. J starts to poke my boobs and say it’s so soft and warm. He asks me if my nipples are hard because of that. I don’t know what went inside my mind but I just knew it wasn’t going to end there so I had to get up. Luckily my mom called me, I decided that it was the right time for me to leave before something really did happen.
I can’t belive they had the all three locks on the front door locked. It was so weird and I was just shaking after I left. When I gethome I talked to one of the girls that left. I told her how they touched my boobs and they were asking inappropriate questions. She was like they were just probably curious and they weren’t going to do anything. She said I should let it go and it didn’t mean they were doing to do anything. I still was feeling uneasy.
I don’t know why I didn’t stop them. I mean I could but I just didn’t. I just thought that maybe if I just let them they were going to stop. I felt so weird and it was like an out of body experience. It was like I wasn’t in my body while the whole thing was going on. I don’t know if it’s because they’re gay or I don’t know but I hate myself for letting them do it. My chest just feels weird now and i just have the chills ever since. I haven’t talked to them ever since nor do I want to hang out if they are there. Is it a normal thing for gay guys to do that? Am I over reacting? Should I just forget about it?
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