FACTSYour cousin is strange
Was your sister out of the house?I grew up with them because I was the only girl and they were all I had during that time.
My sister did the same thing, cause she wanted their acceptance and love so bad.
YES. She's much older than me, she's 12 years older than I am! When I say I grew up with all boys, mostly the cousins and brothers were around my age group.Was your sister out of the house?
Yes but she was out of the house and grown... she's 12 years older than me. I have older brothers as well who are all the same wayI'm confused...you said you were the only girl but you had a sister?
OP, my heart goes out to you.Okay, so all my life my male family members preyed on my self esteem lol. They told me that nobody would ever love me and they made me feel really bad about myself. This is how the males are in my family. I grew up with them because I was the only girl and they were all I had during that time. They thought that I'll never have a boyfriend and did everything in their power to hurt me and pick on me. They accused me of being gay for no absolute reason. They talked about me in every way you can possibly think of. They picked on me... severely. My sister did the same thing, cause she wanted their acceptance and love so bad. So she felt like if she aided them on the bullying, they would accept her more so.
And I got away from them 10 years ago... and I just got in contact with a male cousin who told me that he could never imagine me being in a relationship with anyone and that he could never imagine anyone loving me. And he went on to talk about himself and how he got all these b!tches and this and that. And I snapped and told him that he was weird just like the rest of the family, and I blew up and just told him that I couldn't imagine him being in a relationship with nobody and I told him that he act like I'm unattractive and can't get a *****. Cause that's what he was saying in so many words... wouldn't you have taken offense to this??? I feel like I may have snapped more than I should have. But it's a trigger knowing what they already been saying about me all my life.
I question am I beautiful... am I worthy... and I worry that if I was, then my family wouldn't have treated me in such way. Cause if I was pretty and worthy...then why would they do me like that???
I'm at a point where I am trying to heal from it at 28 years old. Cause I haven't been able to hold a relationship because of this.
PM ME. I would love to hear it. Thank youOP, my heart goes out to you.
There is so much I could tell you, but I would prefer to do so privately. Feel free to contact me via DM.
I will say this much right now.
You CAN move past these people whose are united in their goal in life which is to keep their knee on your neck for the rest of your life and theirs.
If you can accept this fact, then you can make changes and not feel the need to reach out to them for ANY reason.
My question to you is why did you reach out to your tormentor? This is not me blaming you, but an effort to get you to understand quickly what your triggers are for reaching out to these people.