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I'm 23 turning 24 later this year, finished school and everything. Throughout my life I never really had best friends, only temporary ones and surface level. I think one reason may be that I was not raised around my ethnic community (I'm African), and went to French immersion schools (canadian thing lol) that were pred. Asian and white. And even early on in elementary and middle school people were segregating in terms of race...the Asians formed an "Asian group" the white girls would hang out with their own and me being the only black girl in the class, I was alone.. plus I was bullied for being shy so that didn't help.
In high school I met more black people, befriended one girl in my classes and thought I had finally found my best friend, only for my her to treat me like an afterthought and a tag along most of the time. Plus she was not a very good friend in general so I cut her off after high school. And making close friends in uni was a flop basically, I made lots of acquaintances and study buddies but no besties.
I have friends now, but they're not close friends whatsoever. We see each other maybe twice a year if that. I always gotta hit them up first just to stay in touch. And they got their own best friends to fall back on. I want a best friend soo bad but I almost feel like it is too late for me because I wasn't lucky enough to find one in my childhood. I can't stand this superficial sh!t anymore I want a sister who gets me and I get them. Is it too late?
In high school I met more black people, befriended one girl in my classes and thought I had finally found my best friend, only for my her to treat me like an afterthought and a tag along most of the time. Plus she was not a very good friend in general so I cut her off after high school. And making close friends in uni was a flop basically, I made lots of acquaintances and study buddies but no besties.
I have friends now, but they're not close friends whatsoever. We see each other maybe twice a year if that. I always gotta hit them up first just to stay in touch. And they got their own best friends to fall back on. I want a best friend soo bad but I almost feel like it is too late for me because I wasn't lucky enough to find one in my childhood. I can't stand this superficial sh!t anymore I want a sister who gets me and I get them. Is it too late?