AshleyDavenport
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Lauren appeared on The Butterfly Podcast a few weeks ago. She’s known the host Melody Ehsani since she was a teen. Julie the other co-host is a medical intuitive. They hosted a private gathering about death in Jan 2020 after Kobe’s death but before the pandemic so this is essentially a continuation of that conversation.
4:20- Lauren mentions that a lot of her arguments with Nip were about time and time being spent. Feels deep down that maybe she/her spirit knew that there wouldn’t be a lot of time left so she always cherished every moment with him…from being in the car together to listening to music together would be the greatest day for her. She would give Nip the tightest hugs. Looking back she realizes she was overwhelming in her affection towards him, which she doesn’t regret. She follows the mantra “love on your people as hard as you can”. Would give Nip kisses/ “attack him with affection” when they were in the car together at stoplights. Reaffirms that her spirit knew there wasn’t much more time left on Earth so she was trying to soak up as much time together as she could
6:17- Lauren mentions that we all know we’re going to die but a lot of people think they’ll be much older in a delusional way so a lot of people pretend that death doesn’t exist. Mentions that when Nip died she was crying so hard and she felt such a major Earth shift with Nip’s departure. Remembers speaking to Melanie saying his death feels so final. She mentions it’s hard grasping the idea of death because we have so much attachment here on Earth.
9:10- Lauren mentions that the human experience is a gift and that because we are spirits, our connection with people never dies and it’s eternal. Mentions the human experience is special because it’s the one time you get to physically express your soul’s desires and love. She can express her hugs and look people in the eye today and it’s an experience to cherish because it can be gone tomorrow.
12:06- Lauren mentions leaning fully into the grief process when Nipsey died. Chose not to fight it…did a deep dive with her grief, was in the darkness and chose to accept it. She feels she was cracked open from the loss but saw that there was a freedom to it because she lost everything to her so now what? What’s next? Believes when she’s more connected to God, consistent in prayers and in her devotions and eating clean, she’ll dream about Nipsey more, she’ll have a whiff of scent and it’ll be Nip’s. Still feels his essence around her like when something funny happens and she thinks that’s something only her and Nip would laugh at…but this only happens when she believes she’s meeting Nip on his terms in the afterlife.Only at a certain level of consciousness is she able to be clear in her little moments of connection/miracles with Nip throughout the day.
13:52- Lauren mentions to Julie (the medical intuitive) that she initially didn’t want to accept Nip’s death, cried that it wasn’t fair, it was wrong, it wasn’t supposed to happen.
15:40- Lauren mentions this girl she’s following on social media that is battling a terminal illness. Doesn’t understand this girl’s illness in her own education on death in relation to Julie’s statement that everyone’s death is always a benevolent, kind process (Julie later expands on her statement that the taking of another human life is an injustice).
21:26- Lauren mentions that there’s a peace and gift that comes with knowing that death is coming and having the opportunity to prepare affairs on Earth beforehand. Mentions having a detached relationship with death growing up. Shares that her grandmother died on her birthday, all her grandparents are gone, her grandfather was burned to death. Mentions there was always death around her, growing up in LA boys she went to school with were dying violent deaths by the time they got to high school. Thought to herself she was going to die one day, it’s okay…until she had her first son then she didn’t want to die so soon anymore. She wanted to stay with him a little longer. Understood death in theory until she experienced it so intimately that it challenged all her preconceived notions. Thinks death teaches us as much about life as life teaches us about life.
29:25- Lauren questions about whether humans have purpose in the afterlife like we do on Earth.
36:20- Lauren mentions how we take care of ourselves is connected to our aging process. The ability to surrender and let go of things can also play a role in our vitality as humans.
40:26- Lauren mentions there were pieces of her that left with Nipsey when he died. Mentions not being able to look at older pictures of them together because she felt the girl in those pics left with him. She recalls not really seeing any reason to be here when Nip was killed. Started questioning her purpose after. In her mind she would be satisfied being Nip’s woman, supporting his mission, and raising the kids, a simple life. Mentions Nip’s life had so much purpose that his mission still continues after he’s physically transitioned. She concludes that her life has purpose as well after realizing she’s attached so much of herself and fit her life to align with Nip’s purpose. Battled internally after Nip’s passing, questioned why she couldn’t have gone first since she had more education on death, Nip really liked Earth and Lauren didn’t like Earth as much and Nip was helping so many people. Concludes that through her grief process it’s not her time to go yet but in the mean time she wants to be a vessel for God so she hopes not to miss the mark in her life.
43:05- On what Lauren wants people to know about death: She wishes that people were more aware of keeping the connection to people that have transitioned and that it’s possible. That death shouldn’t feel so morbid and final because the connection still remains, just different. Prays to have an overstanding of death.
46:05-Lauren mentions how in her family when someone dies after the funeral that’s it and they’re not really spoken about anymore. She’s teaching her kids that when they miss Nipsey, write a letter, light a candle, give some love to the sun and to be grateful that they had such a personal experience with him and how lucky they were to get to know Nip so intimately. Mentions that when Kross misses his dad (Nip) she’ll tell him to close his eyes and envision his dad…for him to ask his dad to come to him in a dream. Emphasizes the importance of what Nip has accomplished in his death, that his mission and purpose still continues. Mentions that people place so much importance on titles: mom, wife, daughter, that our purpose here on earth is so much bigger than any title or intimate relationship.
49:40-Lauren agrees that someone’s presence and existence on Earth will always be so much bigger than how or why that person died. Gives it an ashé and the podcast ends.
4:20- Lauren mentions that a lot of her arguments with Nip were about time and time being spent. Feels deep down that maybe she/her spirit knew that there wouldn’t be a lot of time left so she always cherished every moment with him…from being in the car together to listening to music together would be the greatest day for her. She would give Nip the tightest hugs. Looking back she realizes she was overwhelming in her affection towards him, which she doesn’t regret. She follows the mantra “love on your people as hard as you can”. Would give Nip kisses/ “attack him with affection” when they were in the car together at stoplights. Reaffirms that her spirit knew there wasn’t much more time left on Earth so she was trying to soak up as much time together as she could
6:17- Lauren mentions that we all know we’re going to die but a lot of people think they’ll be much older in a delusional way so a lot of people pretend that death doesn’t exist. Mentions that when Nip died she was crying so hard and she felt such a major Earth shift with Nip’s departure. Remembers speaking to Melanie saying his death feels so final. She mentions it’s hard grasping the idea of death because we have so much attachment here on Earth.
9:10- Lauren mentions that the human experience is a gift and that because we are spirits, our connection with people never dies and it’s eternal. Mentions the human experience is special because it’s the one time you get to physically express your soul’s desires and love. She can express her hugs and look people in the eye today and it’s an experience to cherish because it can be gone tomorrow.
12:06- Lauren mentions leaning fully into the grief process when Nipsey died. Chose not to fight it…did a deep dive with her grief, was in the darkness and chose to accept it. She feels she was cracked open from the loss but saw that there was a freedom to it because she lost everything to her so now what? What’s next? Believes when she’s more connected to God, consistent in prayers and in her devotions and eating clean, she’ll dream about Nipsey more, she’ll have a whiff of scent and it’ll be Nip’s. Still feels his essence around her like when something funny happens and she thinks that’s something only her and Nip would laugh at…but this only happens when she believes she’s meeting Nip on his terms in the afterlife.Only at a certain level of consciousness is she able to be clear in her little moments of connection/miracles with Nip throughout the day.
13:52- Lauren mentions to Julie (the medical intuitive) that she initially didn’t want to accept Nip’s death, cried that it wasn’t fair, it was wrong, it wasn’t supposed to happen.
15:40- Lauren mentions this girl she’s following on social media that is battling a terminal illness. Doesn’t understand this girl’s illness in her own education on death in relation to Julie’s statement that everyone’s death is always a benevolent, kind process (Julie later expands on her statement that the taking of another human life is an injustice).
21:26- Lauren mentions that there’s a peace and gift that comes with knowing that death is coming and having the opportunity to prepare affairs on Earth beforehand. Mentions having a detached relationship with death growing up. Shares that her grandmother died on her birthday, all her grandparents are gone, her grandfather was burned to death. Mentions there was always death around her, growing up in LA boys she went to school with were dying violent deaths by the time they got to high school. Thought to herself she was going to die one day, it’s okay…until she had her first son then she didn’t want to die so soon anymore. She wanted to stay with him a little longer. Understood death in theory until she experienced it so intimately that it challenged all her preconceived notions. Thinks death teaches us as much about life as life teaches us about life.
29:25- Lauren questions about whether humans have purpose in the afterlife like we do on Earth.
36:20- Lauren mentions how we take care of ourselves is connected to our aging process. The ability to surrender and let go of things can also play a role in our vitality as humans.
40:26- Lauren mentions there were pieces of her that left with Nipsey when he died. Mentions not being able to look at older pictures of them together because she felt the girl in those pics left with him. She recalls not really seeing any reason to be here when Nip was killed. Started questioning her purpose after. In her mind she would be satisfied being Nip’s woman, supporting his mission, and raising the kids, a simple life. Mentions Nip’s life had so much purpose that his mission still continues after he’s physically transitioned. She concludes that her life has purpose as well after realizing she’s attached so much of herself and fit her life to align with Nip’s purpose. Battled internally after Nip’s passing, questioned why she couldn’t have gone first since she had more education on death, Nip really liked Earth and Lauren didn’t like Earth as much and Nip was helping so many people. Concludes that through her grief process it’s not her time to go yet but in the mean time she wants to be a vessel for God so she hopes not to miss the mark in her life.
43:05- On what Lauren wants people to know about death: She wishes that people were more aware of keeping the connection to people that have transitioned and that it’s possible. That death shouldn’t feel so morbid and final because the connection still remains, just different. Prays to have an overstanding of death.
46:05-Lauren mentions how in her family when someone dies after the funeral that’s it and they’re not really spoken about anymore. She’s teaching her kids that when they miss Nipsey, write a letter, light a candle, give some love to the sun and to be grateful that they had such a personal experience with him and how lucky they were to get to know Nip so intimately. Mentions that when Kross misses his dad (Nip) she’ll tell him to close his eyes and envision his dad…for him to ask his dad to come to him in a dream. Emphasizes the importance of what Nip has accomplished in his death, that his mission and purpose still continues. Mentions that people place so much importance on titles: mom, wife, daughter, that our purpose here on earth is so much bigger than any title or intimate relationship.
49:40-Lauren agrees that someone’s presence and existence on Earth will always be so much bigger than how or why that person died. Gives it an ashé and the podcast ends.