incogneato
No face, no case.
I'm 20. I want to cut off my entire family because I am literally the black sheep of that family to the point that I wanted to kill myself. I know that I need to move out from that kind of environment but right now I am not financially able to do so. So I have to endure them. I do not have any friends. I am a loner. I gave up on friendships a long time ago. And I will definitely cut all of my relatives off when I do move out.
My African parents are just the worst thing I ever had in my life. They never showed me any love, affection or attention since I was a child. I had to learn a lot of things the hard way. My father did not wanted me to be born. He slowly started to neglect me because of my academic achievements. I did not live up to his expectations so he told me that he's ashamed of me that I am a disgrace to the family. My mother is excessively abusive physically, emotionally and verbally and so is my father but my mother is worse. They used to beat me because it's apart of African culture and that's how their parents used to "discipline" them. I remember this one time when my mother took my head and knocked me out on a glass table then my sister knocked me out with her tennis racket. My father stood there and did nothing.
I have so much animosity towards my parents. They ruined, failed, destroyed me and turned me into a misanthrope. My mother thinks that she knows me because she's the one who gave birth to me but she does not know what's inside of my heart. What I went through. In fact, she knows nothing about me. My parents love to put me down and compare me to other people. When I had suicidal thoughts my entire family was mocking me. My younger siblings are so disrespectful towards me. My sister would encourage me to kill myself. Nobody in that family values me.
When I will have kids of my own I do not want my relatives near them. I do not want any of my relatives at my wedding. They will completely be out of my life. I am the only one who's got my back in this world. I have no friend or family to confide in, no support, no love.
My African parents are just the worst thing I ever had in my life. They never showed me any love, affection or attention since I was a child. I had to learn a lot of things the hard way. My father did not wanted me to be born. He slowly started to neglect me because of my academic achievements. I did not live up to his expectations so he told me that he's ashamed of me that I am a disgrace to the family. My mother is excessively abusive physically, emotionally and verbally and so is my father but my mother is worse. They used to beat me because it's apart of African culture and that's how their parents used to "discipline" them. I remember this one time when my mother took my head and knocked me out on a glass table then my sister knocked me out with her tennis racket. My father stood there and did nothing.
I have so much animosity towards my parents. They ruined, failed, destroyed me and turned me into a misanthrope. My mother thinks that she knows me because she's the one who gave birth to me but she does not know what's inside of my heart. What I went through. In fact, she knows nothing about me. My parents love to put me down and compare me to other people. When I had suicidal thoughts my entire family was mocking me. My younger siblings are so disrespectful towards me. My sister would encourage me to kill myself. Nobody in that family values me.
When I will have kids of my own I do not want my relatives near them. I do not want any of my relatives at my wedding. They will completely be out of my life. I am the only one who's got my back in this world. I have no friend or family to confide in, no support, no love.