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No face, no case.
Mid twenties, never had any type of man. Knew I was a lesbian probably from the time I was 14.
My family are very strict and conservative haitians who definitely do not agree with the lgbt lifestyle. My youngest minor siblings aren't even allowed to watch Disney/TV anymore due to all the shows with lgbtq characters.
By my age both of my parents(now separated) had families and kids. Im closing in on thirty and have neither. I have felt pressure from them to get a man but idk how to say it is not a man i want. Both of my younger adult siblings and older brother are coupled/have kids or both. Im surprised they havent suspected anything.
Its mental torment to have to keep it a secret. I dont want everyone up in my business but im tired or pretending to be attracted to men, or thinking one is cute when i have no desire for them. Im tired of having men recommended to me. Im tired of not feeling free to be with a female.
Another aspect is my religion..i am devoutly christian, grew up in the church and do believe Jesus is real....i have a hard time reconciling that with my feelings. I have a hard time approaching a female or joining a dating app without thinking of my beliefs and thinking that God is watching my actions.
I live in south florida and the haitian community is very close knit and knows everyones business, and i know i would be booted out and ostracized if i came out. Sometimes i feel like my only solution to keeping my life together is to move. Any advice?
My family are very strict and conservative haitians who definitely do not agree with the lgbt lifestyle. My youngest minor siblings aren't even allowed to watch Disney/TV anymore due to all the shows with lgbtq characters.
By my age both of my parents(now separated) had families and kids. Im closing in on thirty and have neither. I have felt pressure from them to get a man but idk how to say it is not a man i want. Both of my younger adult siblings and older brother are coupled/have kids or both. Im surprised they havent suspected anything.
Its mental torment to have to keep it a secret. I dont want everyone up in my business but im tired or pretending to be attracted to men, or thinking one is cute when i have no desire for them. Im tired of having men recommended to me. Im tired of not feeling free to be with a female.
Another aspect is my religion..i am devoutly christian, grew up in the church and do believe Jesus is real....i have a hard time reconciling that with my feelings. I have a hard time approaching a female or joining a dating app without thinking of my beliefs and thinking that God is watching my actions.
I live in south florida and the haitian community is very close knit and knows everyones business, and i know i would be booted out and ostracized if i came out. Sometimes i feel like my only solution to keeping my life together is to move. Any advice?