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Hey ya'll,
Please don't make fun of me cause I just don't understand. A little back story, I'm a 24 year old late bloomer when it comes to life basically. I've should've gotten my degree last year and this year but life happened( Started college this year as a second semester freshmen) I just lost some weight and trying to glow up. People tell me that I'm easy to talk too, cute, fun, funny and nice but can be mean sometimes.
What just got me in my feeling is how I've never experienced romance and dating. My mom and sister will always tell me stories of how guys will holla at them and chased them (tbh my mother and sister can be mean to men lol). Then, there is me, I've never had that. Guys that I liked never wanted me and they will honestly put me in the sister zone asap (I don't come off desperate, people tell me all the time I come off nonchalant) . Like recently, I have this coworker ( he is half white and half Mexican) who randomly told me that I am the gas to his fire. He said that its a good thing ( idk he shocked me. I don't believe him what so ever. Plus we can bump heads at times but then we will have many moments of giggles and laughs.) and I never had a man tell me that before. He is really passionate and some of the stuff he said to me made me question did he like me? Again, I question it because I'm inexperience.
We have a new woman in my dept. and all the guys are having googly eyes for her ( btw she is white and the other coworkers are white). my half Mexican coworker really thinks she is attractive and he even helped her out of tasks related to work . Before she came, he agreed/volunteered to be my partner on Friday's. It is our busiest days of the week and I was legit the only one working for the rest of the night. He is putting more effort with her then helping me. Like dude you always say I am the gas to his freaking fire! Well damn! do the work so we can finish the day off and I can go home!
Basically, what frustrates that I see so many (ww) women who are average and sometimes mediocre that can easily get what they want. It's like as a black woman I feel like I HAVE TO BE ON 10 FROM HEAD TO TOE to just get be "notice" ( rarely happens) from guys of any race of my age. I know y'all going to say focus on yourself but that's all I've ever do. It honestly hurts because I wonder what is wrong with me? I know its my environment but there is black men that comes to my job but just walk pass me. Honestly I don't want my coworker at all but its so tiring that I get hit on by old men, hoodboogers, and hobosexuals.
Should I just become the lesbian everyone thinks I am? lol jk I had to throw some humor in there
Sorry if there is a lot of grammatical and spelling errors. I'm too sad to even correct them.
Please don't make fun of me cause I just don't understand. A little back story, I'm a 24 year old late bloomer when it comes to life basically. I've should've gotten my degree last year and this year but life happened( Started college this year as a second semester freshmen) I just lost some weight and trying to glow up. People tell me that I'm easy to talk too, cute, fun, funny and nice but can be mean sometimes.
What just got me in my feeling is how I've never experienced romance and dating. My mom and sister will always tell me stories of how guys will holla at them and chased them (tbh my mother and sister can be mean to men lol). Then, there is me, I've never had that. Guys that I liked never wanted me and they will honestly put me in the sister zone asap (I don't come off desperate, people tell me all the time I come off nonchalant) . Like recently, I have this coworker ( he is half white and half Mexican) who randomly told me that I am the gas to his fire. He said that its a good thing ( idk he shocked me. I don't believe him what so ever. Plus we can bump heads at times but then we will have many moments of giggles and laughs.) and I never had a man tell me that before. He is really passionate and some of the stuff he said to me made me question did he like me? Again, I question it because I'm inexperience.
We have a new woman in my dept. and all the guys are having googly eyes for her ( btw she is white and the other coworkers are white). my half Mexican coworker really thinks she is attractive and he even helped her out of tasks related to work . Before she came, he agreed/volunteered to be my partner on Friday's. It is our busiest days of the week and I was legit the only one working for the rest of the night. He is putting more effort with her then helping me. Like dude you always say I am the gas to his freaking fire! Well damn! do the work so we can finish the day off and I can go home!
Basically, what frustrates that I see so many (ww) women who are average and sometimes mediocre that can easily get what they want. It's like as a black woman I feel like I HAVE TO BE ON 10 FROM HEAD TO TOE to just get be "notice" ( rarely happens) from guys of any race of my age. I know y'all going to say focus on yourself but that's all I've ever do. It honestly hurts because I wonder what is wrong with me? I know its my environment but there is black men that comes to my job but just walk pass me. Honestly I don't want my coworker at all but its so tiring that I get hit on by old men, hoodboogers, and hobosexuals.
Should I just become the lesbian everyone thinks I am? lol jk I had to throw some humor in there
Sorry if there is a lot of grammatical and spelling errors. I'm too sad to even correct them.